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Jul. 4th, 2007

It's been a bad day. Yesterday was a bad day. Tomorrow ain't looking so hot neither. Just read some nifty storybits. And watched Serenity. And I'll be damned if almost every single person in that movie isn't just straight up edible. Seriously. I'm never quite sure if I love it cause it's Sci-Fi niftyness, cause it's kick ass violent rebellion for the good of the world (always gets me), cause it's just this side of them all being bad guys (and nothing turns me on like tainted souls...not evil mind...just tainted), or because it's about two steps away from the best porn ever. "Ain't logical. Cuttin' on his own face, rapin' and murdering - Hell, I'll kill a man in a fair fight... or if I think he's gonna start a fair fight, or if he bothers me, or if there's a woman, or if I'm gettin' paid - mostly only when I'm gettin' paid. But these Reavers... last ten years they show up like the bogeyman from stories. Eating people alive? Where's that get fun?" Oh Jayne my love...you make me swoon. And the accents...lord have mercy on my poor little heart the accents. I'm putty in the hands of a pretty thing with a sweet accent...and that describes just about everyone in this movie. Gina Torres couldn't get more beautiful if she tried, Nathan Fillion is just rugged scrumptious and has got that accent, Adam Baldwin is just the most delicious hunk of space-rogue-almost-bad-guy ever to grace a movie screen, Morena Baccarin looks like a kitten...no lie...makes me think of an adorable little kitten in human form and wandering around half nekkid, Jewel Staite is just sexy-normal-little-dorky-girl and her accent makes me squee...and then in the end where she and Sean Maher are necking and he ain't wearing his shirt...*swoon*, Summer Glau is just the best tortured soul sexy ever, and lastly but never ever leastly...Alan Tudyk and David Krumholtz. Nerdy, not quite cool, but oooh sooo attractive to me. I've loved them both from previous ventures...and love them in their roles in this movie as well. Computer nerds, Space Rogues, Redheads, Accents, Fight scenes that look like poetry in deadly motion. My weaknesses all rolled into one movie extravaganza. So delicious. I'll dream happy tonight even if nothing else goes right all week. Thank you HBO thank you.
Been a bit. Went to Beach. Had fun. Came home. Life was normal. Went to Amanda's. Went to party. Got drunker than any human being has the right to be...was sick as a dog...came home early because I felt like death...will now kill Doug-the-fucker-who-was-gunning-for-me-in-drinking-games if I ever ever ever see his hideous face again. Realized yet again that me + pictures = DO NOT WANT...even worse when I'm drunk. Recovered. Still flinch at the sight/smell/thought of beer or liquor. Read lots of smut and went to work like normal. End of recap. Going to Steph's 4th cookout at her new townhouse probably. Since it's a weeknight and Brian will have to work it'll be me and Ari dropping in for a bit. Gonna bake cookies to take. Should be interesting at the least. My car door stopped latching shut today...makes me want to cry. Very badly. So it's in the parking lot with the door duct taped shut and I can't drive it anywhere which means I didn't get to go hang out with Amanda this weekend. And then when I shaved my legs I changed the razor blade and nicked the hell out of my legs. It was not a good day. But then I put a Pooh Bear band aid on it...got Le Farm asiago cheese bread...settled down with some nice smut with D/s overtones and had a nice big fat "Me Day". My hair is clean and fluffy and fun to play with and I'm happier now for it. All is not right with the world...but it's close enough to count for something.

Jun. 9th, 2007

I'm going to the Beach tomorrow. Yes capital B. I can almost feel the sand and the ocean air already. God it's better than any drug I've ever done. There's very few things better than being on a beach late at night while the waves crash and the wind blows over your skin and the sand is cool between your toes and the moon is reflected on the water turning it to molten silver in places...it's wonderful even in the summer when it's hotter.  I want to retire to a northern beach somewhere. Just be alone and at peace with the world. I'm gonna be there for a whole week...with all my family. During the day it'll be chaos...kids and people running around screaming everywhere...so many family members...the whole place full up with noise and love and laughter and insanity...but at night...at night it's quiet and dark and so fucking right that I don't ever want to leave. I believe in God in those moments...feel like I could almost feel him/her/it whatever next to me. It's so intense and wonderful...I need it so bad right now too.
Supposed to work today but migraine from stress and not eating so couldn't, Work Wednesday, Work Thursday, sleep/pack/get ready Friday, BEACH ON FUCKING SATURDAY BITCHES! I can't wait...you have no clue. For chrissake I just need a break. Hopefully I can run away a night or two while I'm up there and just get away by myself on the beach or something. Mom lectured about going to the doctors...because the migraine interrupted my work schedule and "the medicines help with those too sweetie". Um..no...they don't. However getting glasses with the right prescription prolly would make the headaches better which would in turn prolly decrease the frequency of migraines. The only thing worse than being nagged is being nagged by someone who's at least partially right...but still doesn't understand a damn thing they're talking about.


Life is sorta kinda really up in the air right now. Money is horribly scarce, I'm a little wonky in the head, and my MIL is in the hospital for a "minor stroke"..."we think". Translation something weird happened and they don't know what it was...and since she had a dual anuerysm when Bri was younger they're not taking any chances and are testing the ever loving mess out of the poor woman. I'm currently typing this from their house because her husband is out of state on work and someone needs to stay with Rachel, my 12 yr old SIL. I am going out of town on the 9th though...and I really hope she's better by then, at least enough that we can still go, because it's the family vacation of the summer...and I've totally been looking forward to it since last years beach week. Ugh...but Becka messaged me through myspace to see if we could get together an play Mario Party 8 on her Wii...which should be horribly fun whenever we can get together and do that. I've really missed having her as a best friend so perhaps we can be really good friends again.

Language Barrier...

Ok so I have just recently realized just how much the written word can differ...even within a single language. Starting off with...what the holy hell is a "singlet"? I thought at first it was just a british and australian usage and then I started noticing it in american english stories as well...what the fuck is it? I get that it's a tank top of some sort *i think*...but being the hillbilly I am all I can come up with is it's a fancier term for a wife-beater. Am I just that backwards and everyone who isn't southern calls wife-beaters singlets? Because I have never heard that word from a live person before. Second issue: "Wanna come over to mine?" and "Let's head over to yours." You, my dear children, are missing words. Also another thing I thought was british or australian...but yet again I've noticed it in quite a few american english works. I'm quite convinced that the people in my state must speak another language entirely sometimes. I mean I know that American English, British English, and Australian English might as well be recognized as three completely separate languages but I'm starting to think there should be "Southern American English" and "Northern American English" as well. What with the "pop" and the not understanding the intrinsic linguistic value of the word y'all and then the previously mentioned examples as well I'm starting to just think that we might as well be two different cultures entirely. It interests me greatly. I truly wish I had a lifetime to spend just cataloging and analyzing the differences between the dialects within the english language...it would be so freaking interesting. Alas, Alack. </language geek moment>


May. 30th, 2007

Ok I'll be the first to admit sometimes I'm paranoid to the point of almost insanity...but to fall back on the favorite saying "Just because you're paranoid doesn't mean they aren't really out to get you." This whole LJ purge thing that's going on terrifies me. I haven't done a damn thing wrong but the expansion of the censorship that already plagues our society makes me horribly antsy. It makes me wonder what's next. It makes me feel like there might be someone watching me at all times or something. Will the sites like ff.net and fictionpress.net take down all the stories with minors involved in them? The whole HP fandom would have to come down almost...forgetting for a moment that most people who read and write HP fanfics are minors themselves. Will someone decide that the slight amount of pain I like in my stories to satisfy the "hurt/comfort" requirement is really me applauding actually doing things like that? Will someone decide that those coming of age stories are a little too raunchy and have characters a little too young to be allowed? It just concerns me. It's times like these I want to colonize the moon...and I wouldn't invite everyone you can be sure.


Girly Test of some sort...

I stole this off someone else's livejournal...can't remember who though cuz i don't know them personally. Thought it would be funny since i'm one of the weirdest girls ever. So here's the girly test, just for kicks and to take up space!

[x] You own over 10 bottles of nail polish *i like painting my nails insane and mismatched colors...they're currently three diff ones*
[ ] You own a designer purse
[ ] You own perfume that cost over $60
[x] You had/have fake nails *once for prom and then never again...ugh my real nails are longer anyway*
[ ] You have more body/hair products than you can use
[ ] Your pet is a chihuahua/Pomeranian/Yorks
hire Terrier/Siamese/Shih Tzu
[ ] You have clothes/shoes/accessories for your pet
[ ] You have enough clothes to cover an entire refugee camp.
[ ] You have enough pictures to create your own wallpaper.
[ ] A pink comforter, carpeting, walls or sheets.
Total: 2

Do you:
[ ] Spend more time at the mall than you do at home/work
[x] Have a hair color that is not natural *I hate my natural hair color...it's mousey...and I'm contemplating chunking it lime green and dark purple during school when i don't work*
[x] Have "blonde moments" all the freakin time *I am a natural blonde...*
[ ] Buy stuff because it's awesome and then never wear it
[ ] Constantly keep your phone at your side
[x] Dance around in your room when nobody else is home *does it still count if it's to Skynard or CCR?*
[ ] Have a name for your car *i do give the ol' hunk o' junk pep talks though...but that's just to keep her going...*
[ ] Know what celebrity is dating who and who broke up this week
[ ] Refuse to go out in public without makeup
[ ] Prefer to be called "princess"
Total: 5

[ ] Makeup
[ ] Glitter
[ ] The Color Pink
[ ] Jewelry
[ ] Mirrors
[x] Chick flicks *I'm a sucker for a happy ending*
[ ] Shoes
[ ] Rainbows
[ ] Unicorns
[x] Disney Movies *see above*
[x] Candles *actually it's the fire i adore...but the candles sustain it...*
[ ] Flowers
[ ] Stuffed Animals
[ ] Purses
Total: 8

[ ] Coach
[ ] Forever 21
[ ] Victoria's Secret
[ ] Guess
[x] Claires *They have cheap stuff for my cartilage piercing...*
[ ] Express
[ ] Delias
[ ] Hollister
[ ] American Eagle
[ ] Abercrombie & Fitch
[ ] Aeropostale
Total: 9

[ ] Bitch *my word of choice in these situations is cunt...which i think is FAR less girly...*
[x] Whatever *i actually say whatev...it's embarrasing*
[ ] Oh my gosh/goodness
[x] Hun *i say sugar more but i figured it was close enough...*
[ ] Fugly
[ ] That's hot
[ ] Dunzo
[ ] Darling
[ ] Psh
[ ] Cutie
[ ] Hottie
[ ] Skank
[ ] Totally
[ ] For Sure
[ ]Fabulous
Total: 11

Do You Read:
[ ] Cosmopolitan
[ ] Glamour
[ ] Marie Claire
[ ] Elle Girl
[ ] Teen Vogue
[ ] People
[ ] Us Weekly
[ ] Star
[ ] Self
[ ] PerezHilton.com
[ ] Dlisted.com
[ ] 17online.com
[ ] people.com
[ ] usmagazine.com
[ ] popsugar.com
[ ] Pink Is The New Blog.com
Total: 11

Do You Love These:
[ ] Legally Blonde
[ ] Elizabethtown
[ ] Mean Girls
[ ] Now & Then
[ ] The Notebook
[ ] A Walk to Remember
[ ] Sweet Home Alabama
[x] Where the Heart is
[ ] Just my luck
[ ] John Tucker Must Die
[x] Center stage
[ ] Bring it On
[ ] How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days
[ ] Mona Lisa Smile
[ ] My Girl
Total: 13

Do you really enjoy...
[ ] America's Next Top Model
[ ] Project Runway
[ ] Desperate Housewives
[ ] The Simple Life
[ ] 8th & Ocean
[ ] Sex & the City
[ ] Grey's Anatomy
[ ] The O.C.
[ ] Laguna Beach/The Hills
[ ] Nip/Tuck
[ ] Gilmore Girls
[ ] Degrassi
*i can honestly say i've never seen a single episode of any of these shows...and some of them i haven't even heard of*


That's your girly percentage--- 26%


So...I've finally gotten one of these after lurking on some really wonderful writers for a while. I figure they deserve to here to the praise from a consistent source...and it's supposed to be a therapy rant journal as well. So I'm setting it up...and fiddling with settings and hopefully friending some of the really awesome authors whose writings I've been drooling over for a while.